Thursday, December 29, 2011, 5:01 AM
Step one: light me on fire.
Step two: walk clean away.
I'm seventeen now, finally. Thank you so much to everybody who wished me and spent time with me on this humble day. In a couple of days, we'll be ushering in a new year. I feel......... lost. Should I be? I don't know. I'm in a constant state of wonder.
What am I supposed to be doing? Who am I supposed to be? Is this what I'm supposed to expect? Where is this heading? Am I really happy?
This is making little to no sense at all. Why am I always like this? I know I'm not considered as the norm, but come on - this emotional jet lag is enervating. It's like the whole world is inconspicuously laughing at me and feeding off my insecurities. I'm not insecure, but they're making me feel this way. Why is life playing with me right now? I'm not in the mood to be fucked with. Everything in my life is finally going swimmingly and here comes a dark heavy storm cloud trying to rain on my parade.