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taking back the fat
MH370
i will follow you into the dark
malignant
explosions in the sky
euthanasia
por favor
over and under
jupiter's moon
stratosphere
with rue my heart is laden
Saturday, January 31, 2015, 12:32 AM
After all we've been through -
the whirlwind of
what seems stupid now
was not so stupid then,
morphing slowly into the
monster I'd hide under
my covers from on
thunderstorm nights
& dark gloomy mornings:
Regret
is its name.
So we meet again, old friend.
I haven't seen you since
that time I made my
mother
cry;
Oh
forgive me mother for
I have sinned a g a i n s t you -
You who provided shelter for
nine months
without asking me
for a penny of rent money,
you who gave me food, water,
your voice
singing me to sleep.
And yet I've let you down,
by going behind your back
I've let
you
down.
There was a time back then
when you last carried me
& put me down,
only to never carry me
in your arms
ever again.
And because of that,
I retaliated by crushing
myself
into tiny little pieces
of guilt
and failure,
so that the Earth can
swallow me into the
ground once more:
to
cleanse
me of myself -
only so I can rise above again:
a
Phoenix
birthed from the
a s h e s
of my past,
to fly into the sky
lit aflame with
fiery wings of
hope and chance.
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